An update at last...

I haven't posted for 6 months. But I'm having a really rough time at the moment. Grandma died on February 15th. I don't want to go into detail because I'll get too upset again. I feel really lost and I'm upset that my friends haven't been very supportive. They knew her & knew how much she meant to me and yet they haven't called (except Julie, who has called 2 times since) to see how I'm doing. Alison lost her Dad last July, so she's been great as she understands what I'm going through. But she didn't know Grandma, so it's not the same.
Anyway, I'm not going to go into it all too much on here. I have no idea how the weight loss is going and I can't bring myself to care that much at the moment either. Everything seems so pointless.

Wednesday

Have been away for a while, so not updated in ages.

Breakfast-bowl of oats & more cereal. Coffee
Lunch-2 slices of wholemeal toast topped with a can of spaghetti and a bit of cheese. Activia yog.

Weighed in on Wii this morning and I've lost 2lbs since last time. I've now lost over a stone since starting this, but I can't see any weight loss at all. In fact I feel bigger than ever. I feel like a whale and so bloated. Kellie said she saw in my face that I'd lost weight, but I'm not sure if she was just being nice. I feel so disheartened, but I don't want to look like this anymore. We're hoping to go to America next year and I don't want the humiliation of having to get an extender for my seatbelt. It's so embarrassing.

I will keep at it. Just wish I had some more support.

Breakfast-one plain bagel with light soft cream cheese. Coffee
Lunch-noodles with chicken tikka pieces. 3 shortbread biscuits. Coffee

Breakfast-one cinnamon and raisin bagel. Coffee
Lunch-chicken escalope. Noodles in reggae reggae sauce
Tea-2 chicken wraps-small. Choc artic roll

Tuesday

I'm rubbish at keeping this up to date, I know.

Breakfast-one cinnamon and raisin bagel. Coffee
Lunch-3 slices of wholewheat toast with cheese & reggae reggae sauce. Coffee
Tea-Pasta bake. One slice of bread

Wednesday

Wii fit says I've lost 1lb. Played a few games of tennis on the wii this morning. Been sorting out christmas pressies today. Have a lot bought already. :-)

Breakfast-2 slices of wholemeal toast with raspberry jam. Coffee.
Lunch-cheese on toast-2 slices. Packet of wheat crunchies. Coffee.
Snacks-coffee, nutrigrain bar. Aero mint mousse.
Tea-4 fish fingers in 2 white rolls. Some oven chips. Shared a tub of Haagen Daaz with DH...ooops! Then had a Baileys...oooooops!

Tuesday

Breakfast-cinnamon cereal. Coffee
Lunch-can of spaghetti, cheese & 2 wholemeal rolls.
Snack-Nutrigrain bar
Tea-chicken breast stuffed with cheese, wrapped in bacon. Boiled potatos, mini yorkshire pudding. Artic roll for dessert.