An update at last...

I haven't posted for 6 months. But I'm having a really rough time at the moment. Grandma died on February 15th. I don't want to go into detail because I'll get too upset again. I feel really lost and I'm upset that my friends haven't been very supportive. They knew her & knew how much she meant to me and yet they haven't called (except Julie, who has called 2 times since) to see how I'm doing. Alison lost her Dad last July, so she's been great as she understands what I'm going through. But she didn't know Grandma, so it's not the same.
Anyway, I'm not going to go into it all too much on here. I have no idea how the weight loss is going and I can't bring myself to care that much at the moment either. Everything seems so pointless.

Wednesday

Have been away for a while, so not updated in ages.

Breakfast-bowl of oats & more cereal. Coffee
Lunch-2 slices of wholemeal toast topped with a can of spaghetti and a bit of cheese. Activia yog.

Weighed in on Wii this morning and I've lost 2lbs since last time. I've now lost over a stone since starting this, but I can't see any weight loss at all. In fact I feel bigger than ever. I feel like a whale and so bloated. Kellie said she saw in my face that I'd lost weight, but I'm not sure if she was just being nice. I feel so disheartened, but I don't want to look like this anymore. We're hoping to go to America next year and I don't want the humiliation of having to get an extender for my seatbelt. It's so embarrassing.

I will keep at it. Just wish I had some more support.

Breakfast-one plain bagel with light soft cream cheese. Coffee
Lunch-noodles with chicken tikka pieces. 3 shortbread biscuits. Coffee

Breakfast-one cinnamon and raisin bagel. Coffee
Lunch-chicken escalope. Noodles in reggae reggae sauce
Tea-2 chicken wraps-small. Choc artic roll

Tuesday

I'm rubbish at keeping this up to date, I know.

Breakfast-one cinnamon and raisin bagel. Coffee
Lunch-3 slices of wholewheat toast with cheese & reggae reggae sauce. Coffee
Tea-Pasta bake. One slice of bread

Wednesday

Wii fit says I've lost 1lb. Played a few games of tennis on the wii this morning. Been sorting out christmas pressies today. Have a lot bought already. :-)

Breakfast-2 slices of wholemeal toast with raspberry jam. Coffee.
Lunch-cheese on toast-2 slices. Packet of wheat crunchies. Coffee.
Snacks-coffee, nutrigrain bar. Aero mint mousse.
Tea-4 fish fingers in 2 white rolls. Some oven chips. Shared a tub of Haagen Daaz with DH...ooops! Then had a Baileys...oooooops!

Tuesday

Breakfast-cinnamon cereal. Coffee
Lunch-can of spaghetti, cheese & 2 wholemeal rolls.
Snack-Nutrigrain bar
Tea-chicken breast stuffed with cheese, wrapped in bacon. Boiled potatos, mini yorkshire pudding. Artic roll for dessert.

Went on the Wii Fit this morning and I've gained 2lb. Really depressed about it.
Grandma is out of hospital, which is good.

Breakfast-Cinnamon cereal. Coffee
Lunch-Chicken pieces with noodles.
Tea-Home made pork curry with naan instead of rice.
Half a tub of Ben & Jerrys frozen yogurt.

Breakfast-cinnamon cereal
Lunch-leftover pasta in a wrap (x2)
Tea-Home made pizza with chicken pieces. Muffin.

Breakfast-cinnamon cereal
Lunch-pasta, pesto, half mattesons sausage. Chocolate muffin & coffee.
Tea-Lamb in spicy sauce in a garlic & coriander wrap (x2). Muffin.
Snack-2 krisprolls with spread

Breakfast-cinnamon cereal. Coffee
Lunch-wholewheat noodles stir fried with chicken tikka pieces.
Tea-stuffed chicken breast wrapped in bacon. Mashed potato.

Mum called yesterday and Grandma is in hospital. Her leg gave way in the garden and she can't walk at the moment. Mum should know more today, as yesterday she was just being transferred to another hospital. Hoping the phone will ring soon...

Breakfast-2 slices wholemeal toast with Nutella. Mug of coffee.
Lunch-2 white rolls with (slimy) cheese and (stale) crisps. Yuck!
Snack-twix & Coffee
Tea-Pasta bake & granary bread. 3 fudge pieces & mug of tea

Breakfast-Cinnamon cereal. Coffee.
Lunch-Pasta & pesto from yesterday. A few krispbreads.
Snack-Twix & coffee
Tea-spaghetti on toast with cheese. Couple of slices of toast a bit later as we were still peckish

Feeling a bit low today

Lost another 2lbs, according to my Wii Fit. All this hard work, trying to stay away from naughty food and I still can't SEE any result. Jeans don't feel looser and I certainly don't look any better. Feeling a bit crap about it to be honest.

Breakfast-Cinnamon cereal-dry. Coffee
Lunch-pasta & pesto. Bag of crisps.
Snacks-Twix & coffee. Tea & a few pieces of fudge.
Tea-Sweet & sour lamb & noodles.

Breakfast-2 hash browns, 2 sausages, spaghetti and some granary bread
Coffee.
Lunch-Bacon cheeseburger in a bun with a few chips. Finger of flapjack.
Tea-Half a can of tomato soup. Some granary bread

Breakfast-Bowl of Oats & more. Mug of coffee.
Lunch-Pasta in a tomato sauce with a bit of turkey ham mixed in. Finger of flapjack.
Tea-Home made chicken curry with rice. Naan bread. Mug of tea. Ice cream-Bob's fault!

Thursday

Went on the Wii Fit today and realised I've lost just over a stone since I've been using it. It sure doesn't feel like it. I don't think my clothes feel looser or that I look any thinner. Mind you, what's a stone when you're the size of a whale anyway?

Breakfast-Dry cinnamon cereal
Lunch-wholewheat noodles with satay sauce. 2 small white rolls with a packet of crisps.
Snacks-Finger of flapjack. Nutrigrain bar
Tea-Pork chop with some roast potatoes. Mug of tea and 2 biscuits. Some popcorn.

Wednesday

Off to Gloucester tomorrow, so won't be able to update again.

Tuesday

It's been a busy few days! We visited lots of Home Bargains and both QVC outlets. Got some good bargains and have Christmas well on the way to being sorted! :-)
Eating was a bit all over the place while Sue & I were away. She doesn't seem to eat proper meals at the proper time, so we ended up having breakfast at lunchtime and just eating junk food the rest of the day. But I'm back on track now, I hope!

Breakfast-coffee. Cinnamon cereal with no milk.
Lunch-plain noodles with pieces of mattesons sausage in satay sauce with mascarpone cheese. Packet of crisps.
Snacks-4 crisprolls & cheese. Some fudge. Coffee
Tea-Pasta in a tomato and mascarpone sauce. Garlic bread.

Thursday

B-Bowl of strawberry crisp with plain yogurt instead of milk.
L-some chips. Lemon cake (at Ali's)
T-kiev and mashed potato

Off on holiday tomorrow with Sue, so no update until next week.